Two more new print releases, this time in the Triple Trouble series. I’m working my way through the entire Triple Trouble series because I’ve had a TON of requests for those. There is no new story content in these, just light editing and a few tweaks here and there, since they were written so long … Read More
So…pretty big news! My publisher no longer does print versions so they’ve returned the print rights to my books. Yes, including the Suncoast Society books! I’m now in the process of going through all of them and formatting them for print and making new covers for them. (I’m making the covers myself.) This means with … Read More
Yesterday marked 32 weeks since “that” day and tonight I broke down in my kitchen while trying to scan in old photos from albums Russ’ siblings loaned to me. I was okay, at first. … Read More
I left Florida around 3pm Friday afternoon and rolled (literally) into Iowa around 1:30pm the next day. Last night was Russ’ niece’s graduation. Today, I went with his siblings and other family to visit their parents’ graves. Then they drove me past their childhood home, and we stopped to get pictures. Well, the owner was … Read More
Mostly packed for my trip to Iowa. I’ll finish the rest in the morning. Then I pick up the rental car and I’ll be on my way by early afternoon. This is going to be… Lots of tears, I’m sure. It’s not fair Russ isn’t here to do this. I can’t believe it’s been 7 … Read More
I got Russ to try boiled peanuts for the first time that last weekend. LOL He was not impressed. And I forgot what was left in his fridge. Amalie Arena is where the Jimmy Buffett concert was held that we were going to in December. 🙁 I don’t understand… Correction, I STILL cannot process I … Read More
One year ago. I took these selfies of us one year ago, Russ. It was not only a great evening with friends who I finally got to introduce you to after a year of pandemic isolation, but it was also the 1-year anniversary of when I collared you. You’d already long before collared me too, … Read More
On the way home from Viking training this morning I flipped my music over from my phone to XM, on Radio Margaritaville. Was talking to Russ and asked him to send me some songs. But it was in the middle of one of RM’s “Buffett Buffets,” an hour where they play nothing BUT JB songs. … Read More
21 weeks later. … Read More
On Saturday, 3/5/22, friends of mine and Russ’ and my Spouse (Barb) who are in the lifestyle gathered together for a celebration of life for Russ at the BDSM club we volunteer at. I created a slideshow, and this is the text of the eulogy I wrote and read for him. It’s not exactly a … Read More
If you ordered signed print books, Amazon’s bulk printing screwed up the first batch they shipped me and due to supply chain issues it’s taking for-fucking-ever to get the replacement order. They’re supposed to be here soon, and once they are I’ll get everything shipped out. Thank you for your patience. Also, I have a … Read More
“Why do you HAVE to keep writing about Russ? We get it, he died, but you’re poly and you have a spouse, so it’s not like you’re alone. You’re young. Move the fuck on.” No, I haven’t heard that exact combination of words from any one person but the various versions of that, condensed together, … Read More
It’s weird the stuff grief makes us do, right? The little things we cling to after death rips someone from us? Those of you close to me know all about my quest to duplicate Russ’ laundry smell, and some of you have held me during my meltdowns over the most mundane of things. But those … Read More
14 weeks today since the 911 call, Russ. I know I should stop the morbid counting but it feels like losing yet another piece of you if I do. I did get the rawhide laced onto the second shield, baby. Just need the boss and handle now, and some finishing touches. How is it 14 … Read More
It’s been 13 weeks since the worst night of my life, Russ. I’m trying. I really am. Because I know that’s what you want me to do. Worked on our shields today. Cried some. I keep thinking about how after we built these you wanted to build two more once we knew what we were … Read More